Perhaps...I am going about this the wrong way...

Maybe the reason I am not posting very much is that I wait until I have bunch of thoughts and post them all together. I think it might work better if I post my thoughts individually as I go...so that I don't wait for a whole list. So, I'll try that for a while.

Update on job search: It sucks!

I have been on a couple of "interviews". I use quotes because they are really not good jobs I want or can even do. Both were for outside sales jobs to consumers. ie, knocking on people's doors at home and trying to sell them something. I think this job requires a certain personality and I am not that personality. The companies know this because they make you go along with someone doing the job and observe...I did this both times and both times, it was a miserable experience. So I am convinced that it won't happen.

So I yet persevere...I have a phone interview tomorrow regarding a bank sales position (at least it is inside sales) and another outside sales "seminar" interview on Tuesday. (Why do I keep scheduling these? I dunno...perhaps I hope the next one will be different. Perhaps I need a reason to get out of bed. *shrug*) I have an interview for another job that I could do well and would like on Thursday. And it doesn't involve sales at all. Of course, at this stage, I have no idea what it pays, so it is probably far too little.

I send out resumes every day. And I call to follow up on em. Sometimes I beat the gatekeeper on those calls and sometimes I don't. I don't get very many response or call backs...I would say I hear SOMETHING on about 15-20% of the resumes I send. The other 80% just disappear. Maybe that is why I am responsive with the outside sales positions...because of all the work I do and all the calls I make, they are the only people who genuinely seem interested in discussing employment and perhaps hiring me, rather than being burdened by my very existence. A need for simple affirmation, perhaps...(see Strip Club Addiction.)

I am doing something wrong. I know this...I mean, I should have better return than 15-20% right. I am not networking...Sure, I make the follow up calls but that is not the same thing...there are people in the world, some of whom are fairly influential, who would help me if I asked. But I don't ask...why? I am not sure...it is not something I can bring myself to do. That could be it...it could also be that I have no real experience other than in sales. I worked for 10 years for a company that I helped run. I did what was needed to keep the company successful and that doesn't really translate beyond general office work. I didn't do any IT stuff, I didn't do any writing, I sure as hell didn't do anything legal. I did do sales (on some level) for the whole 10 years. I did some basic training but nothing extensive. I ran a small business (expense control, P&L, management of staff, etc.) but that isn't really a skill set in demand. So, it could be that no one is responding because they do not feel that I have the skills they want in their candidates. That would be my fault for applying to the wrong jobs but I am canvassing the options applying to everything that I am confident I can do (but that is also likely to pay more than unemployment. There is no point to me getting $10/hour work.)

Oh well, I guess I keep at it and hope for the best. People tell me that it is the economy and that it is "tough" out there. These things are true and I know there are unemployed people who are in that boat. But that ain't me...I am waiting for a job that won't make me want to kill myself every morning to get out of bed and go to it...and it appears that I am not really qualified for those jobs. :(

OK...enough happy thoughts. I'll post again soon about something depressing, honest! :)

-gen

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